Phew...Sometimes You Gotta Just Trust the Big Man Upstairs.

So with all the stuff up in the air about my future, this is how I felt about stuff. But Tuesday, I came back to one of the things that always has been there and worked for me. Yup that's the Big Man upstairs.

I decided to revisit a passage that has always influenced my whole life.

Matthew 6:25-34

The Cure for Anxiety

25"^(A)For this reason I say to you, do not be ^(B)worried about your life, as to what you will eat or what you will drink; nor for your body, as to what you will put on. Is not life more than food, and the body more than clothing?

26"^(C)Look at the birds of the air, that they do not sow, nor reap nor gather into barns, and yet your heavenly Father feeds them. Are you not worth much more than they?

27"And who of you by being ^(D)worried can ^(E)add a single hour to his life?

28"And why are you ^(F)worried about clothing? Observe how the lilies of the field grow; they do not toil nor do they spin,

29yet I say to you that not even ^(G)Solomon in all his glory clothed himself like one of these.

30"But if God so clothes the ^(H)grass of the field, which is alive today and tomorrow is thrown into the furnace, will He not much more clothe you? ^(I)You of little faith!

31"Do not ^(J)worry then, saying, 'What will we eat?' or 'What will we drink?' or 'What will we wear for clothing?'

32"For the Gentiles eagerly seek all these things; for ^(K)your heavenly Father knows that you need all these things.

33"But seek first His kingdom and His righteousness, and ^(L)all these things will be added to you.

34"So do not ^(M)worry about tomorrow; for tomorrow will care for itself. Each day has enough trouble of its own.

So I took these verses and applied Matthew 6:7-12 to it. I don't know what tomorrow brings but I know Wednesday night I heard back from my contact at Campbell and she gave me great news. Pat gives this news a big thumbs up.

He'd give two but one hand is occupied at the moment.

So now that I know that I'm going to be a 1L at Campbell starting this August, I can finally start realistically imagining myself as a lawyer. I guess it was all dreaming before.

But I also realized that the Lord is in ultimate control over these situations and knows exactly when you need to be picked up or when you need to struggle to learn stuff. I was surprised by how big of a relief this was off of my chest.

But the Lord is good and I'm just working on trusting him with not only this but other stuff. I think a Socrates quote is applicable here.

"The only true wisdom is in knowing you know nothing."

I'm letting these situations and feelings go and letting the Lord take them on for me.

Again, millions of thoughts...

That's going to be a Campbell J.D. in 3 years.